"true love isn't just expressed in passionately whispered words or an intimate kiss or an embrace; before two people are married, love is expressed in self-control, patience, even words left unsaid."

-joshua harris

I just read chua's blog, her posts always make me reflect a lot on things in life. Relationship and all. With what's she going through now, I don't think i'll have th courage or strength to possess that hmm... I might say obligation? Or, God's calling?

I mean I havent talked t her in a long time ): I'm really quite sad about it. We used t be able to talk everything, really. Like weekends were always both of us tgt. On th bus, pouring out things tt happen in our individual lives.

"today i weaved my way through a crowded place, and i couldn't help but wish you were there to hold my hand, to push me through the crowd, to turn around every few seconds because "i'm scared you'll get lost, i can't help turning around to check if you're still there". (i miss hearing you say that, i forgot to tell you that i didn't mean it when i told you it was a weird thing to say.)

things are so different now. not exactly bad different, but not good different either.i got so much to say, but words completely fail me.

"when i think about the heavens the moon and all the stars i wonder what you ever saw in me but you took me and you loved me.""

lynettechuaaa, i'm not sure if you ever get to read this. but just so you know, you give me strength.. somehow, the words you say in your daily entries, gives me a 'thought of the day'. it makes me realise some things in life. the other side of things. & i look forward to your posts often, really (: more imptly, i miss you ):

I'm soooo v v v v v happy i'm gna see you tmr, dear (: Even if its just a few minutes.

(: (: (:

You know it matters to me.