I'd roll out of bed in the morning

Its a gloomy moody tired day, then again, a full of weird nonsense happy wappy kind of day too. Its really signs of pms, yes moodswings i guess. But... Its also today i realised, my significance.... I meant, my insignificance. Sometimes, things never get to people you want it to get. Sometimes, you hope for something yet people just dont really care about you or your hopes afterall. Somethings are just more important at that moment. Sometimes, you think you ought to deserve some symphathy or help, yet nobody's there to help. Actually, these are really minorities, because in fact, i do get the tender loving care, that everybody gets, from friends, family and a doting bf, but sometimes, just sometimes... I can't help but feel this way. Maybe, we shouldnt put our hopes too high, maybe... just maybe, there shouldnt even be hopes. Then again, because of this thoughts, it made me also realised how selfish i'm becoming. That i seek in receiving, rather than giving. When words are so superficial, and actions stuck at the back of my head. Sensitivity seem so far away. So appalling and ghastly that is. To find out that, i'm such a person now. Weird, thats my name.