If I was a boy

1. I realised I love thinking about random things, making my own conclusions, & theories in life. Philosophies that perhaps only exist in my world. I like thinking about what's going to happen the next day, or the month later, or a year later, or maybe even... years ahead? I guess its not exactly a plan in life, because liqin never works well on a planned schedule. "Like tick tick tick, my life's wonderful!" Okay maybe yes it works, better. But honestly, i'll prefer not t rely on that, if i have a choice.

2. One random thought, that was prancing (what a weird word to use) around in my mind, was about... how friendship is truly a test of time... Somehow. People tend to place more trust in someone they've know for years. So easily. Opinions from them always seem to matter more. Yep, I am comparing again.. Ohwell, I really can't help myself.

3. I feel healthier today because I ran 10 rounds around the track + Walked 2 rounds! Been real long since we've done that. But we were going at a super slow speed, prolly an average of 5mins per round ahahaha!!

4. I know its been sooo very long since I last talked about my studies. These days I find myself liking & thus studying more and more, bit by bit. I guess its the momentum. I doubt I'll make it for the block test, since when did it even work out for me. But you know, these days I keep thinking about my future. I'm 18 this year already, & I have no idea what I'm going to do after I finish my As. People might say, I still have till december or march next year to decide, but i guess i'll prefer having a goal or a path that I can head along first. Maybe? Sometimes I wonder if its really that important to get all wrapped up, for life. Why can't I just go with the flow, I'll be happier like that isn't it? Then again, isnt it kinda an obligation to lead life that way? Okay I know obligation wouldnt be a right word, because it seems that we dont have a choice. But okay yes, I'm like I make no sense at all, but I do understand what I saying. Its just a messed up mind I often have. Its not harmful.

I assure you.

I. Think.