1:21 On Repeat!

I've been eating tooo much these days, mom's been feeding me with food, four meals a day yes.. All leaving me super full at the end. Goshhh & i don't think she intends to stop. Good thing is tt, I get freee food everyday heehee :D :D I need to contact Dr.Chan very soon, or I'll start getting disgusted with my own face. Breakouts & pimples/scars that absolutely refuses to go away ): Extremly sad about it.

There are many people out there who keep complaining about being fat, or rather 'fat', or 'ugly' and whatsoever nots about self-esteem. & dang, I may be guilty at that, sometimes. People say its a girls thing, "don't know what's wrong with them". Some people say "The skinnier you get, the more you lose 'at some particular areas'. Then there's the ''you gotta be confident about your ownself, your own body'' or ''natural is true beauty''. But honestly, its not easy i guess. People are never satisfied with what they have, contented maybe? But never satisfied. My sister says '' I think you're suffering fr the face version of anorexia." True enough, I don't think I can ever convince myself I look alright. Because my brain accepts selectively. It takes in all the "You look like a man" / "Your nose is big" / "You got your dad's genes" (Which in my case isn't too good hee) / "White hair!" / "You look like you haven't slept for years" / "Dark circles are bad" etc etc etc the list goes on. But zero percent of compliments, if there even is, never ever do they enter this minuscule brain of mine. Then there's the comparison argument, like compared to others or there's so many other things in life. True, but it never helps, seriously. So my point is... its a vicious cycle that will never end. Bless us.

I'm still hoping they'll postpone school reopening to a week later, although i know the probabilty of that happening is close to zero!

Crab beehoon, Bugis, Cityhall, Blisters, Love, 1:21, Poke poke haha.

I'll be leaving on 6 bucks for 4 weeks!!

& that was my day at the zooooo :D