Gives me Hope

Give me hope.

A few months ago, I was at dinner with friends, and we ended up having an emotional talk (mostly about my self-esteem issues) and I cried for about half of dinner. When I got the receipt, the stunning waitress had written something across the top: "You're even beautiful when you cry." GMH

Last week, my grandma who had been diagnosed with cancer lost all her hair. My grandpa told me he had never seen a more beautiful woman in his life. They have been married 49 years. GMH.

Awwww doesnt that bring some warmth into your heart (: It did to me!

Cramps are the most evil thing on earth besides pickles. I think I almost died today, i bet my sister was helpless. I was very helpless, when my screams and moans couldnt wake her up becos i mean... Its my sister here, she's always a deep sleeper. Other then at times when she's eavesdropping. I tried calling you for help, but nah it too didnt work too. I tried to carry myself to the kitchen, but I couldnt sit up at all. This has got to stop.

So becos its this period of the month, I lost weight once again. I dont know how much more my body can take. Don't wanna try. Its soooo difficult for me to gain weight ): Kinda really upset over it. I mean I'm totally fine(i think) w my weight, and myself, cos i'm afterall erm short? But i'm tired of getting comments like ''You're too skinny like bones" I'd rather get "You're skinny in a good way" So saddening.

I know some people may find it unfair, but life's like that isn't it. We're never satisfied with what we have. Never contented.

Drain, ill feel. Am i still breathing?