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Clare: It's hard being left behind. I wait for Henry, not knowing where he is, wondering if he's okay. It's hard to be the one who stays.
I keep myself busy. Time goes faster that way.
I go to sleep alone, and wake up alone. I take walks. I work until I'm tired. I watch the wind play with the trash that's been under the snow all winter. Everything seems simple until you think about it. Why is love intensified by absence?
Long ago, men went to sea, and women waited for them, standing on the edge of the water, scanning the horizon for the tiny ship. Now i wait for Henry. He vanishes unwillingly, without warning. I wait for him. Each moment that I wait feels like a year, an eternity. Each moment is as slow and transparent as glass. Through each moment I can see infinite moments lined up, waiting. Why has he gone where i cannot follow?




I'm bored, & i'm hungry. I'm too lazy to cook or buy, so I'm eating want want for lunch.
I've decided that I will stop complaining abt being broke, becos
I'm getting irritated with myself & becos, I dont see the point of self-pity anymore.
I'm not broke because I've no money, I'm not "cheapo" becos I'm not stingy you shld know, I don't believe in letting money come between anything
I just happen to have somthing that I really want, & its this time tt I really want to use my own efforts to get it
Not just extorting it fr mom. This time, I really want it. So just let me be stringent this time, i promise it'll last for a few mths only, pretend I've no money and let me be.


I'll like to have one day where I'm able to let go of everything, go on an adventure with a camera round my neck. Go to places tt bring me to who I am today. The adventure trips during my childhood days, experience the days of digimon device at th playground, going up the hill (which no longer exist), walk to bedok central macs (which no longer exist too), visit the people who has been in the market for years, say hello to those living in the estate & still recognise me since I was little till now. So many things have changed ):


People change, & so have I. Instances are short-lived & I've made my fair share of blunders in life. Some bigger than the others. Yet, sometimes I wish some things will never end, some things worth hanging on to. Passsion will bring us somewhere, somehow. But how do I find it?


I'm gonna start reading Time Traveller's Wife ^^

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Went for SYF presentation night (: & AJ's conductor was stylo-milo ttm, posie + I kept talking abt him. I was practically staring at his hair the entire song, though its only the back view! Hahahaa! & accessorize is having 50% sale now * screams hell. I love sales yummy tum tum :D

Theres only one thing two do three words four you
I love you